this is my friend, liz montgomery, always . . .

this will give you some idea

of the woman she was:

"It’s very difficult to explain how much difference having Cooper and Audrey makes to this thing. A million reasons to live, and two that make it acceptable to die. I want to be there to love and support them in their crazy dreams and endevours, cook with them, catch waves, take long aimless walks, laugh at the silly and the serious, look at galleries and museums and mountains and answer all questions to no matter how repetitive, absurd, or difficult. I really, really want to be there. But I know without me it will still happen. I know that Sasha is the most wonderful man I have ever met. And I’m pretty bloody picky. He is the best father. Ever. And that with the support of all of our friends and family there will always be someone to teach Audrey to surf or Cooper to fly fish, who will pull them in line when they’re being obnoxious, and help with their teenage fashion and romance dramas (probably in that order of importance) it’s inevitable.

So I can die knowing I’ve been a part of making two remarkable people who will grow up to be astonishing.

Not that I’m planning on taking that route, but it does make me calmer somehow.

Liz"

liz passed away this week,

in the company of her mother and her husband.

i think the last post she made on her blog says all one can about her.

i found the pic of them i remembered last week.

it's how they'll remain for me,

always:

give me a minute . . .

got some news today that i need to absorb.

grr and i are going to huddle

hug

and get back to you.

COMING ATTRACTIONS : Torera, the fitting session

this past weekend,

gearing up for the shoot,

tim and i met connie bang,

our intrepid and dogged producer,

and dragged my father, wayne,

(poor unwitting bystander)

to meet up with

eduardo lucero,

designer divine

at his atelier to review the clothing for the shoot.

but first, lunch at mauro's

that was pretty much dad's expression all day.

a mix of "this is fun" and "what next?"

then, the gowns.

it was a fashion explosion.

(eduardo lucero, above)

eduardo prides himself on cutting for real women,

but i think his variety of inspirations and eye for detail and line

caught me most off guard.

and little did connie know,

but she was about to become a fit model.

ok, it didn't take MUCH convincing . . .

she is an ex-mo-del.

plus, my ribcage wouldn't fit in that damn 

tooled leather corset.

yes, those are hand beaded lace panties.  yeah, boy.

eduardo kept putting connie in all these insane hooded dresses. . .

not surprisingly,

connie took to the clothes like a balenciaga gladiator sandal to an olsen.

then again,

what's a girl NOT going to love?

dad, meanwhile,

passively took it all in . . .

and i?

i began dreaming.

of turning lens to these creations . . .

COMING ATTRACTIONS : an explanation

this is going to be a crazy, creative summer.

in addition to "the weapons project",

which i'll talk more about once a few more players are in place,

we're about to film the first of a series of short films

using the eduardo lucero "matador" runway as an initial inspiration.

tim has always been a huge proponent of trying new things,

but even more so of the concept that 

the only thing holding you back from doing what you want

is just DOING it.

not in a nike way.

it's actually shocking how much can happen in your life

if you just say to yourself

yes, i can.

yes, i will.

and then . . .

do it.

i'm not being simplistic here,

or even trying to go all oprah on your asses,

it's just something i have to keep reminding myself,

and whether it's the weapons project, 

or this first short film,

the only thing holding me back

turns out,

is me.

so here i am,

with the help of my friends and co-workers and partner 

starting another major undertaking.

TORERA

(a coming attraction)

this project involves the creation of a trailer 

for a film that does not exist.  

We will be filming sequences and snippets of an imaginary story, 

bit and pieces of dialog and action, 

that when strung together will comprise a compelling reason to run to the theatre . . . 

even though the film will never be released.

this film is called “Torera”, 

and is about the love affair between a woman and a matador.  

As we learn from the scenes, 

there is much more to the “boy meets girl” scenario, 

there are bits of madness, slivers of dreams, and perhaps, perhaps 

even murder.

principal filming for the first "coming attraction",

TORERA,

begins this sunday, may 17th.