Friday, February 27, 2009

friday, we state the obvious -

i guess we all need to remember,
it's all about how you define 
i'm keeping my "here"
a little fuzzy
at all times
just helps me breathe a little better,
you know?

Thursday, February 26, 2009

the lesson for thursday? rotate the sun.

we are taught
to look forward,
for our goals.
to look behind us,
for our lessons.
but what if our lessons and our goals
were mixed throughout time,
and we had to find what we needed
by looking both ways
at all times.
or looking at ourselves
in the moment,
the only "time"
when we truly exist.
i saw this and thought:
"i love the feel of the sun on my face"
and then:
"maybe i should grab it, so i can turn wherever i want,
and see whatever i need to see,
i am beginning to think that our lives would be better lived
if we learned to apply warmth
where we need it,
and light
everywhere we look.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

the wednesday lesson : payoffs

i had this posted on my door
at old navy:
and i,
like most everyone i worked with,
believed in this.
it didn't always work out.
that's human, that's life.
but part of doing it,
working as hard as you can for a goal,
for a group,
for creation,
has it's rewards only if you can turn to those next to you
and say
WE did great.
i imagine in any venture it's true,
but i know when you are in a creative field it is for sure,
it is the team, not the individual,
that makes it
ALL come together.
and living more like that,
or at least trying to,
let's me feel like this:
who didn't see that one coming?
what do you expect?
my grandfather handed me ayn rand
when i was TEN.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

motto tuesday : activation

i've been thinking . . .
my motto has always been from john gardner's GRENDEL,
and amazing book that takes the beowulf legend
from the p.o.v. of the monster.
heavy and wonderful stuff.
teaches you to question who's telling the history,
and what the other side of every lie is.
because every story has it's portion of lie.
grendel lives by the motto
(nothing from nothing)
which initally we think means a form of nihilism,
until we come to learn that it is a shortening of a life philosophy.
that nothing comes from nothing,
therefore you have to DO something 
if you are ever to expect a return.
the corollary being, of course,
i offer you these two thoughts,
along those lines:
more poetically,
more powerfully:
go, kidlets.
be everything.

Monday, February 23, 2009

monday's lesson : acceptance

i'm a little slow right now.
this week, 
dedicated to posts around inspiration,
thought provocation,
and general perspectification.
i've never been very good at simply "accepting"
the way things are.
i was raised to create my own reality,
to be "anything that i wanted to be",
to "fight for what i wanted".
so i came across this,
and my friends,
i get,
but i struggled with it:
it's so . . . final.
it's so fate over free will,
that it stumped me.
but, i gave it time, and this is where i began to come out.
i have always believed, as in #1,
that we are meant to meet the people we meet in life,
and it is OUR choice how we deal with that.
we either learn the lesson, take the gifts, provide the help,
we don't and are fated to meet them, in some form, again
(and again and again)
until we do.
fate, meet free will.
i get #2.  it plays into HOW you deal with #1
#3 is a tough one for the landis.
i just told tim today my big life lesson is PATIENCE,
and i'm not very good at it.
and anger isn't the issue in my life, FRUSTRATION is.
funny how the two fit together.
so waiting for the WHEN is harder than dealing with the NOW.
#4, whew.
it's perhaps the most true.
and perhaps the most heartbreaking.
my version?
the most important thing to do
is say "goodbye".
too many times in life i've neglected that,
and too many times i've wished i'd done it.
and in the end of this discourse,
i came down to the inevitable.
one through four,
the hardest lesson for us all.