i'm a little slow right now.
dedicated to posts around inspiration,
and general perspectification.
i've never been very good at simply "accepting"
the way things are.
i was raised to create my own reality,
to be "anything that i wanted to be",
to "fight for what i wanted".
so i came across this,
and my friends,
but i struggled with it:
it's so . . . final.
it's so fate over free will,
that it stumped me.
but, i gave it time, and this is where i began to come out.
i have always believed, as in #1,
that we are meant to meet the people we meet in life,
and it is OUR choice how we deal with that.
we either learn the lesson, take the gifts, provide the help,
we don't and are fated to meet them, in some form, again
(and again and again)
until we do.
fate, meet free will.
i get #2. it plays into HOW you deal with #1
#3 is a tough one for the landis.
i just told tim today my big life lesson is PATIENCE,
and i'm not very good at it.
and anger isn't the issue in my life, FRUSTRATION is.
funny how the two fit together.
so waiting for the WHEN is harder than dealing with the NOW.
it's perhaps the most true.
and perhaps the most heartbreaking.
the most important thing to do
is say "goodbye".
too many times in life i've neglected that,
and too many times i've wished i'd done it.
and in the end of this discourse,
i came down to the inevitable.
one through four,
the hardest lesson for us all.